Exams!!!

Exam was so tough! How many times have I told myself that I'll study harder for mid term and not procrastinate so much, but I'll never ever learn my lesson :( Every term is like a wake up call for me, but the problem is, I still find myself dreaming in Neverland, as if I'm not sitting for SPM, as if this year is like my "honeymoon" year. 


I guess I need someone to push me, like literally push me off my chair to make me study, since I'm such a lazy bum bum. Le sigh, why am I so lazy? I ask myself this question all the time. Why can't I score fantastic grades? Why am I such a disappointment to my mom? She has been very patient with me, enduring my shitty attitude every single day after school. I really salute her for being so patient with a shitty daughter like me. I tell her how badly I did for my paper, and she listens to me with a big frown on her face. I know that she's truly disappointed in me even though she tells me it's okay. How can it be okay to have a daughter who doesn't do well for her exams? 


I know that I always say I'm determined to score better for next term, but I guess this is it! It's now or never, DO OR DIE. I really need to start earlier for trials! Gonna work my butt off after stepping down from the prefectorial board and LEO. I need to set my priorities right this time! 

IIIIIIII CAAAAAANNNN DOOOOOO THIISSSSSSSS